So, I didn’t get the job.
I was pretty bummed when I got the phone call yesterday afternoon, but the woman was very nice and talked with me for a while.
She explained that she chose someone with more experience and who could “hit the ground running”. She said she understood how it is frustrating to hear that because I don’t have much experience, but how will I ever get any if no one will hire me?
During our conversation I asked if there was anything I could have done differently that might have put me in a better position for the job. She said there wasn’t and that my presence was very welcoming and she thought I would do great in the field. She encouraged me to continue gaining more experience working with children and to apply again if I ever said they had openings in the future. She also gave me a few recommendations of other agencies and organizations that I might look in to for job openings.
I told her I appreciated everything and thanked her again for taking the time to interview me. She wished me “the best of luck” and then we hung up.
Of course I was upset that things didn’t work out as I had hoped. This means I cannot buy a car this week. This means I cannot start completing my budget and searching for apartments that are within my price range. Because gosh-darn-it I still don’t know what my price range is! Without a job lined up I know that I will be stuck at home for even longer. It’s frustrating. I was so ready to start making those decisions and start creating a new life for myself. And now I’m back to square one.
I really hoped that I would get this job. I thought it was perfect for me. I knew it would be a challange, but I also knew that I would learn a lot and grow professionally. But it didn’t work out, so that must mean there is something even more perfect out there waiting for me.
I’ve already started resubmitting my resume to every place I can find. This morning I made a list of several agencies to call today to ask about openings. I’m getting back on the horse. Sure I’m disappointed and I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t cried a time or two. I’m sad things didn’t work out, but I know I’ll find something else. I just have to be patient.