C and I broke up. It happened Wednesday night. He called me, we talked, he ended it. I was upset and I cried, but it was okay. There was no fighting and no yelling, just a simple conversation. I think we both knew we were unhappy and something needed to be done. He admitted that he wasn’t able to give me what I needed from the relationship and it wasn’t going to get any better… so it’s good that we ended things now instead of waiting it out. This is the first time we have both been unhappy in our relationship at the same time which I think means that this break-up is forever.
I haven’t cried since that night and I haven’t really been sad. I think I knew this was coming and I was preparing myself for it. For now, I am looking forward to the future and the freedom I have. There won’t be the stress and arguments about phone calls. I can now fully focus on my life and what I need to do. It’s a relief actually.
I know it’s going to be hard. We were together for almost 6 years, so obviously it’s going to take time to move on. I know this. But right now I am excited. I feel like the world is mine and I can make anything happen.
Also! I got my second bloggy award!! The wonderful Rebekah from She’s Got Baggage made the Best Baggage Handler award.
I am so honored and happy to have received this award. It really means a lot to me. When I checked my email yesterday at school and saw the message from Rebekah a huge smile spread across my face. I’m sure I looked like a huge dork for the next ten minutes as I walked down the hall smiling. Who cares though? I was happy!
Since Rebekah created this award, she also created the rules. She says, “I want this to go to our blogger friends who are really slogging through crummy times but still making the best of what life has dealt them – even if it means just surviving for awhile.”
I want to pass this award on to the Well-Intentioned Heartbreaker because she amazes me each and every day. Her blog touches on the arguments she has had with her family, her relationship, and the daily life stresses of work and school. Somehow, through it all, she has managed to remain happy… and therefore has become my role-model. Go send her some of your love. She definitely deserves it!