Butterflies

Compared to the last few months, I haven’t been dating much lately. I had a couple dates with B, but after our afternoon of wii, I never heard from him again. Then I went to Vegas and when I got back to NYC I was trying to catch up on all my school work. I’ve been back for over a week now and I still don’t have any potential dates lined up. I’m still on OkCupid and I’ve replied to a few emails, but there is no one that’s caught my interest.

I’m okay with this. And actually, after thinking about it, I decided that I wouldn’t mind going out on a few more dates in the next couple of months, but I don’t want to start anything serious. It looks like I might be moving across the country in less than 3 months, so there would really be no point.

It’s kind of nice knowing that I don’t have “someone”. I don’t have to stress over phone calls. I don’t have to spend valuable time getting ready for a date. I don’t have to worry about what to talk about during that first awkward silence. But it’s also kind of boring. Sure, I don’t have to worry about all those things, but I also don’t get to feel the excitement that comes along with it. I don’t get to feel the butterflies.

That is, until last night. (And this will probably make me sound completely weird, but oh well.) Last night I got butterflies while I was dreaming.

I had a dream where I was hanging out with my 8th grade crush, except we weren’t in 8th grade anymore, we were 24. We were at his house (I don’t even know if he has a house) watching TV. I had just changed into a new shirt and had some trouble with the tags. I asked him to tear them off for me and he did. He was sitting in a chair so I sat down with him, in between his legs all lovey-like. He put his arms around me and started whispering in my ear how much he liked me and was so happy that we were together. My heart was beating so fast and I couldn’t help but smile.

When I woke up I felt like I was in 8th grade again. Like the time I asked to borrow his pencil in math class, or when I asked him to dance at the Middle School Spring Dance. I had butterflies. Majorly.

I looked him up on facebook (we’re “friends”) this morning just to see… how he was doing? I don’t know. I just wanted to see him. He still lives in our home town and he’s working for a major accounting firm. He’s single and as hot as ever.

I’m taking this all as one more sign that I should move back to Texas. What do you think?

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48 responses to “Butterflies

  1. I really believe some dreams have an underlying meaning. I believe this is one of those dreams.

  2. I really believe some dreams have an underlying meaning. I believe this is one of those dreams.

  3. Alana @ Good Girl Gone Blog

    Oh gosh! I always have the weirdest dreams about hooking up with people from my past. Yours was so cute though!

  4. Alana @ Good Girl Gone Blog

    Oh gosh! I always have the weirdest dreams about hooking up with people from my past. Yours was so cute though!

  5. Childhood crushes are so exciting!

  6. Childhood crushes are so exciting!

  7. I’ve had dreams come true. Literally. And I never know I dreamt it until I’m halfway through with the scenario in real life. It’s kind of exciting.

    There’s probably a reason that people say “follow your dreams.” =)

  8. I’ve had dreams come true. Literally. And I never know I dreamt it until I’m halfway through with the scenario in real life. It’s kind of exciting.

    There’s probably a reason that people say “follow your dreams.” =)

  9. Awwww,cute cutey mccute!

    xox

  10. i know i've been kind of quiet & actually "lurking" more than commenting but your last few blog posts are exactly what i'm going through!

    1 – i graduate in May & am struggling with the job hunt
    2 – i'm planning on moving when i graduate and might possibly move to the city my parents live
    3 – i've been on a few dates since my break up but i am enjoying the freedom of not worrying about someone else, think it is rather pointless given i'm moving in a few months but i do miss the excitement πŸ™‚

    it's so nice to hear someone else is in the same boat!

  11. Awwww,cute cutey mccute!

    xox

  12. i know i've been kind of quiet & actually "lurking" more than commenting but your last few blog posts are exactly what i'm going through!

    1 – i graduate in May & am struggling with the job hunt
    2 – i'm planning on moving when i graduate and might possibly move to the city my parents live
    3 – i've been on a few dates since my break up but i am enjoying the freedom of not worrying about someone else, think it is rather pointless given i'm moving in a few months but i do miss the excitement πŸ™‚

    it's so nice to hear someone else is in the same boat!

  13. Ok, PARALLEL MINDS today you and me. I woke up this morning almost ready to completely wipe out my online dating profiles because I decided that instead of putting all of that time and energy into dating, I wanted to put it into MYSELF. Make travel plans, save my money, clean out my closet, work on my card-making, try new recipes, do things for MYSELF that I couldn’t do if I had someone to come home to other than me. All of a sudden, I decided I didn’t have time for a boyfriend. EXCEPT that my childhood crush (or first love) moves back to MN in just a couple of months and my head is working OVERDRIVE with scenarios just like the dream you had. Honey, I can not wait to see where life takes us over the next year or few. πŸ™‚ I think there are some very exciting things in store.

  14. Ok, PARALLEL MINDS today you and me. I woke up this morning almost ready to completely wipe out my online dating profiles because I decided that instead of putting all of that time and energy into dating, I wanted to put it into MYSELF. Make travel plans, save my money, clean out my closet, work on my card-making, try new recipes, do things for MYSELF that I couldn’t do if I had someone to come home to other than me. All of a sudden, I decided I didn’t have time for a boyfriend. EXCEPT that my childhood crush (or first love) moves back to MN in just a couple of months and my head is working OVERDRIVE with scenarios just like the dream you had. Honey, I can not wait to see where life takes us over the next year or few. πŸ™‚ I think there are some very exciting things in store.

  15. This might be weird, since we don’t know each other in real life, but for some reason, this makes me really excited! Haha. I say, go for it!

  16. This might be weird, since we don’t know each other in real life, but for some reason, this makes me really excited! Haha. I say, go for it!

  17. Sometimes I think the things we dream are the things we are too scared to think about in real life. Reading this makes me very excited for you! I cannot wait to see where life takes you Ashley!

  18. Sometimes I think the things we dream are the things we are too scared to think about in real life. Reading this makes me very excited for you! I cannot wait to see where life takes you Ashley!

  19. The Passionate Book Worm

    You know, sometimes good things just get put in your lap and all you have to do is take them!

  20. The Passionate Book Worm

    You know, sometimes good things just get put in your lap and all you have to do is take them!

  21. i have dreams that seem so real. some dreams come true. i think you really need to follow your heart. sometimes our minds/logic get in the way but i think that too much logic can keep us from things we really want.

  22. i have dreams that seem so real. some dreams come true. i think you really need to follow your heart. sometimes our minds/logic get in the way but i think that too much logic can keep us from things we really want.

  23. Erin [aka E.Wiggleβ„’]

    As much as I love Boyfriend, sometimes I miss the butterflies and the “getting to know you” stage. Sure, there’s always things to learn but there’s just something about that first few months of a relationship.

    Send him a message on Facebook. Make up a white lie that says something like you found a momento that reminded you of him and you just wanted to see how he was doing. It couldn’t hurt, right? πŸ™‚

    Good luck.

  24. Erin [aka E.Wiggleβ„’]

    As much as I love Boyfriend, sometimes I miss the butterflies and the “getting to know you” stage. Sure, there’s always things to learn but there’s just something about that first few months of a relationship.

    Send him a message on Facebook. Make up a white lie that says something like you found a momento that reminded you of him and you just wanted to see how he was doing. It couldn’t hurt, right? πŸ™‚

    Good luck.

  25. I always have weird dreams of the past mine normally mean unresolved feelings.

    Maybe yours do too? Weirder things have happened. πŸ˜‰

  26. I always have weird dreams of the past mine normally mean unresolved feelings.

    Maybe yours do too? Weirder things have happened. πŸ˜‰

  27. insomniaclolita

    you should visit when you get back there, at least. whether you move or not xp.

  28. insomniaclolita

    you should visit when you get back there, at least. whether you move or not xp.

  29. Jen - The Secret Keeper

    How exciting, I love those kind of dreams!! Getting fed up of the ones where I get the sack for too much internet abuse!!

    I say move back, but see it as temporary whilst looking for something bigger and better, and definitely hook up with 8th grade toy boy whilst you’re there!! x

  30. Jen - The Secret Keeper

    How exciting, I love those kind of dreams!! Getting fed up of the ones where I get the sack for too much internet abuse!!

    I say move back, but see it as temporary whilst looking for something bigger and better, and definitely hook up with 8th grade toy boy whilst you’re there!! x

  31. Definitely a sign. Then you have to stalk him, bump into him “accidentally” and say “WOW! It’s SO great to see you! We should grab a drink some time!”

    πŸ˜‰

  32. Definitely a sign. Then you have to stalk him, bump into him “accidentally” and say “WOW! It’s SO great to see you! We should grab a drink some time!”

    πŸ˜‰

  33. Gwen B. (aka skinny bitch)

    ooooohhhhhh yeeeeeeeaaah…. πŸ˜‰

  34. Gwen B. (aka skinny bitch)

    ooooohhhhhh yeeeeeeeaaah…. πŸ˜‰

  35. ummm YES YES AND YES. texas is a-callin’! and DITTO to KC πŸ™‚

  36. ummm YES YES AND YES. texas is a-callin’! and DITTO to KC πŸ™‚

  37. Luv it!! Totally go for it – make a re-connect!! Thats what facebook is for:))

  38. Luv it!! Totally go for it – make a re-connect!! Thats what facebook is for:))

  39. ooh how i love the old school crushes. there’s still one guy that if i saw him today i’d probably get all goofy and butterflies too, haha.

  40. ooh how i love the old school crushes. there’s still one guy that if i saw him today i’d probably get all goofy and butterflies too, haha.

  41. definitely a sign- especially since the dream came out of nowhere.

  42. definitely a sign- especially since the dream came out of nowhere.

  43. I love dreams like that as well…. neat.

  44. I love dreams like that as well…. neat.

  45. this made me smile so much! even if nothing happens… sometimes just the dreams/daydreams are a fun distraction. ;o)

  46. this made me smile so much! even if nothing happens… sometimes just the dreams/daydreams are a fun distraction. ;o)

  47. That’s a sign! He sounds cute, go for it!

  48. That’s a sign! He sounds cute, go for it!

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