Compared to the last few months, I haven’t been dating much lately. I had a couple dates with B, but after our afternoon of wii, I never heard from him again. Then I went to Vegas and when I got back to NYC I was trying to catch up on all my school work. I’ve been back for over a week now and I still don’t have any potential dates lined up. I’m still on OkCupid and I’ve replied to a few emails, but there is no one that’s caught my interest.
I’m okay with this. And actually, after thinking about it, I decided that I wouldn’t mind going out on a few more dates in the next couple of months, but I don’t want to start anything serious. It looks like I might be moving across the country in less than 3 months, so there would really be no point.
It’s kind of nice knowing that I don’t have “someone”. I don’t have to stress over phone calls. I don’t have to spend valuable time getting ready for a date. I don’t have to worry about what to talk about during that first awkward silence. But it’s also kind of boring. Sure, I don’t have to worry about all those things, but I also don’t get to feel the excitement that comes along with it. I don’t get to feel the butterflies.
That is, until last night. (And this will probably make me sound completely weird, but oh well.) Last night I got butterflies while I was dreaming.
I had a dream where I was hanging out with my 8th grade crush, except we weren’t in 8th grade anymore, we were 24. We were at his house (I don’t even know if he has a house) watching TV. I had just changed into a new shirt and had some trouble with the tags. I asked him to tear them off for me and he did. He was sitting in a chair so I sat down with him, in between his legs all lovey-like. He put his arms around me and started whispering in my ear how much he liked me and was so happy that we were together. My heart was beating so fast and I couldn’t help but smile.
When I woke up I felt like I was in 8th grade again. Like the time I asked to borrow his pencil in math class, or when I asked him to dance at the Middle School Spring Dance. I had butterflies. Majorly.
I looked him up on facebook (we’re “friends”) this morning just to see… how he was doing? I don’t know. I just wanted to see him. He still lives in our home town and he’s working for a major accounting firm. He’s single and as hot as ever.
I’m taking this all as one more sign that I should move back to Texas. What do you think?