I feel stuck today. I want to write in my blog. I have that yearning and that desire to write and to share what’s been going on in my life. But when I sit down to spill my thoughts, there is something holding me back.
Some of the comments I’ve been receiving lately have been making me upset. I’ve struggled with what to do with that feeling. I have options. I can confront the person/people. I can ignore it. I can think about what they said and move on. Or I can let it haunt me.
For almost two weeks I’ve let certain comments continue to bother me. I thought about writing a post explaining why they made me upset, but then I realized that this is blogging. And blogging is supposed to something where we can all share ideas and be honest with each other, right? So I didn’t feel that it was right for me to complain about my comments and how they were making me feel.
But also, this is my blog and I have the right to say what I want. I want this to be a place where I can say anything and not feel like will be judged. Lately I haven’t felt like that. I’ve begun to censor myself more and more because of the comments I will receive. I think about how my words will be perceived and if I am really giving a true impression on my life. The comments make my second guess everything I write. It’s difficult to read negative comments regarding your life and your decisions, you know.
I don’t want to disable comments and I won’t do that. I want to hear your feedback. That’s one of the most important part of blogging. I want you to know that enjoy the feedback and constructive criticism, but I wish more people would do just that. When you give advice and I don’t ask for it, sometimes I feel like it’s a critique or judgment. I become defensive and put up a wall. And if you are going to critique me, please make it constructive. Otherwise you are just tearing me down and that’s not helping either of us. That’s not what I want my blog to be about.
I’m not sure where I was going with all of this, I just felt like I needed to share what I’ve been thinking. I hope you understand.
I know some of you have had this same problem. How did you decide to go about it? Did you disable comments on certain posts? Did you just learn to take the good with the bad? I’d love any advice you have to offer because I really don’t know what to do.