A Decision To Make

So, I had my first job interview last Thursday, right? It went really well and I pretty much aced the interview. The guy said he would call me on Monday and let me know what positions were available (because this is a weird company where you interview first without knowing what exactly you are interviewing for…). He called Monday morning and said, “Sorry, our last position was filled on Friday. I’ll keep looking though, and let you know if anything opens up.”


I plan to call him again tomorrow, just to check in, but it’s not looking good.

After months and months of job searching I’ve had one interview. It’s so discouraging. It’s making me want to move somewhere new and start over. I’m tired of New York. Also, I’ll be completely broke (re: $0.00 in my bank account) by the end of July, so a decision must be made before then. I either find a job or I move back to Texas where I can live with my mom for free.

For a while I was trying my hardest to stay in New York. Who wants to move back home after finishing a Master’s degree? That’s kind of sad, isn’t it? But clearly I have had very little luck finding a job, so maybe it’s the universe trying to tell me something.

I think my life would be so much easier if I moved back to Texas. It might not be as exciting and thrilling as living in New York City, but there are tons of positive aspects about it. The more I think about it, the more excited I become.

My mom called me last night as I was getting ready for bed. I didn’t feel like talking, but she was asking about my job search. I told her how discouraged I am and how I feel like I’m running out of options. She really wants me to move back to Texas, so she’s been pushing that idea for a while. I started listening to her last night. I could move back. During our two hour conversation I had another idea.

I could become a school counselor. It’s not what I planned to do, but it’s not too far off the track I was heading down either. In Texas, to become a school counselor you need a Master’s degree in counseling (check!) but you also have to teach for two years. This would mean that I make my decision soon, I apply for alternative certification, and I begin teaching in the fall. After one year I would become certified, and after two years I could become a school counselor. It doesn’t so bad!

I always wanted to be a teacher, but my mom had discouraged me saying the pay was horrible. And sure, it’s not great, but it’s also 10K/year more than I would be making as an entry-level at a non-profit. And the pay as a school counselor is even higher than that of a teacher. It all sounds so good; I just don’t make to make this huge decision because I’m discouraged and can’t find a job right this second.

I have all these thoughts and plans for the future running through my head. I wish I was one of those people that can make a decision and not second guess themselves. I wish I could just decide, but there are so many factors to consider. If I move to Texas I’ll be leaving NYC, obviously. That in itself is sad. Also, things with C will probably be over, at least for a while. I’ll have to readjust to living close to my family. I’ll have to readjust to the heat. I’ll have to readjust to Texas.

It’s a big decision.


20 responses to “A Decision To Make

  1. notthelifeiordered

    I'm sorry about the job in NYC but maybe you're right, maybe this is just a sign.

    It is a big decision but the best part–nothing is permanent. If it isn't what you want, if it isn't what you'd hoped it to be, then you can always come back.

    Making big moves and decisions like this is scary, I'm going through my own issues with leaving NYC and i just know its going to be HARD.

    Good luck with everything πŸ™‚

  2. cuteellaisbold

    Good luck. You'll know in your gut what the right thing to do is.

    And if I may? Don't let C factor into your decision at all…make this for YOU not for anyone else.

  3. Don't let the stress get to you. Remember, you can always change. No job is forever if you don't want it to be…

  4. I feel like in this job market, you gotta do what you gotta do. I'm not sure what your original career plans were, but I don't think taking a detour down the school counselor road is a bad idea. It's not like you can't continue to look for jobs in your desired field.

    Good luck! I absolutely hate being in limbo with big decisions like this, so I feel your pain πŸ™‚

  5. I definitely believe in signs and this seems like one to me. You can always move back to NYC once you get established in whatever career path you choose.

  6. I believe in signs from the universe. As the others said nothing is permanent. You never whats just around the bend or what sort of doors one decision will open for you. Best of luck in your decision.

  7. That's definitely a rough decision to make. Sounds like there are ups and downs to both. I'd weigh the pros and cons, make a decision and DON'T LOOK BACK. That's all you can do, right?

  8. Bridget Marie

    Just consider the economy. New York isn't exactly one of the top three cities to ride out the recession in! It may be in your best interest to move back south – but don't be discouraged at all. Keep your chin up and hang in there.


  9. I don't intend to be rude and hope not to become the subject of a *rude comments* post… πŸ™‚

    I think you really need to decide what you want for yourself. Because you know your life best. Its ALWAYS better to light a candle than curse the darkness πŸ™‚ Also remember that to win some, you will most probably have to lose some. Take time to weed out the unnecessary in your life and compartmentalize different areas of focus such as job search, money matters, etc. Leaving your boyfriend (?) out of your plans for now most probably should work out to your advantage. Good luck!

  10. I wish I had advice for you, but I am mainly commenting to commiserate. I've been wanting to move from Seattle for a long time, but I just haven't caught a break with the job search in Chicago and LA. I was so determined to move to a bigger city… and this week some great jobs have fallen into my lap that are in my hometown of Pittsburgh, a place I NEVER wanted to move back to. And yet… the more I think about it, the more I find the idea appealing. But it all seems so crazy and I just can't quite wrap my head around it.

    So! I know how you feel. I try to follow my gut aka how do I feel about this option? Excited? Crappy? What is my initial instinct, cutting out all the other stuff like fear of big change, saying goodbye to people I know, etc.

    Another thing I keep thinking is that nothing has to be forever. Wherever I move very well might not be the place I stay for the rest of my life. Life is as long as it is wide. Good luck to you, I think you'll feel much better when you've made a decision.

  11. Wow, such big stuff! Know that if you ever need to talk I'm huge into skype/video gchat and massive e-mails. Just drop me a line.

    It sounds like, from what you're saying Texas might be the right idea for now. Maybe I can't fathom it, but it sounds like in your posts lately like you really haven't been enjoying New York a lot. Will Texas really be that much less enjoyable?

    I would give yourself some time to settle. If you move to Texas make sure you feel things out before you go straight into school again. Make contacts with friends of friends and family who are in counseling, get your name out there a little and see if anything emerges- you'll make it work.

    In this economy, jumping straight into your desired field, even with a masters degree, is a mean feat. It will come, just give it some time and stay positive!

  12. tough choice! good luck in making your decision!

  13. Definitely lots of decisions to make. As far as the school counselor job goes -I just changed from the Mental Health Counseling program to the School Counseling program @ my University. It is 1 semester shorter and I can work either in a school or an agency if I so choose. Of course I made the change to work in a school – no teaching requirements here in TN either. Also, since I Have a little one, having summers off was a big motivator. Think about the future – that may appeal to you more. Good luck!!

  14. I teach outside of Philadelphia in wealthy public school district. Counselors and teachers make the same amount of money as do any other types of professionals (psychologists, reading specialists, gym teacher). All the same. There is a professional pay scale and a support staff (aides etc) scale. Texas may be different but I didn't want you to bank on money if it isn't the case.

    Good luck. I love working in a school. It's generally a really happy and positive environment.

  15. That sucks that NYC is giving you a hard time. Maybe Texas for now would be good – you can always move back after… Good luck with your decision πŸ™‚

  16. I wish you the best in making this decision. Just remember that whatever you decide, it's not for life. There will be plenty of other opportunities to move to interesting place, move closer to your family, move further away, etc.

  17. Well, as corny as it sounds, everything happens for a reason and just go with your heart, girl! You can start as a school counselor and move forward from there and it if it means you can move home like you are interested in doing then even better!

    I know how tough these situations and decisions are. I go through it myself every few months =) Hang in there, the right decision will make itself apparent to you.

  18. I really believe that following your gut will take you where you need to be. You'll make the right decision and things will be great. I think that you would be an awesome teacher and the children would be so lucky to have you!

  19. Girlfriend, it seems like you have a lot rolling around in that head of yours. I'm thinking of you in your time of transition. And remember – it's cheesy, but things always work out how they're supposed to. If you don't find a job before the end of July, well then maybe NY just wasn't meant to be. πŸ˜‰ Good luck!

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