There are so many thoughts floating around in my head right now that I’m having trouble getting them out in a way that is not a jumbled mess. My head feels like a constant clatter of noise, but my body feels calm. I’m excited, yet I’m stressed. I’m happy, but at the same time I’m annoyed with nothing in particular. After a few days of personal reflection I think I’ve come to a conclusion- this is what growing up feels like.
Waiting to hear about this job is making me sick to my stomach. As I lay in bed in each night I practice the words I will say when I get the phone call, whether it’s a “Okay, I understand. Thank you for your consideration” or a “Thank you so much! I really appreciate your offer!” I’m hoping I will find out one way or another early this week.
And the car search, it still continues. So far I’ve test driven a used Acura TSX, Nissan Altima, Toyota RAV4, and Honda CRV. I’ve decided that I really prefer the SUVs, and I won’t be buying a sedan or any smaller car. I prefer the CRV to the RAV4, so that is still a possibility. I’ve also noticed that Ford is having some awesome deals, and plan to test drive an Escape sometime this week. Although, by talking to people, I’ve kind of decided that the CRV still might be a better choice, even if it costs a little more. We’ll see.
Also, randomly, I started looking at condominiums for sale. I found a few in the neighboring town that were selling super cheap. Today my mom and I went to see them. They were cute and seemed well built, but the catch is that not all of them are fully finished. Meaning I would have to install carpet and kitchen counter tops, appliances, etc. So I’m thinking that’s a no-go. But still, it got me thinking about the possibility of buying a condo instead of throwing my money away in rent each month. It’s not something I was planning on doing this soon, at all, but I guess it makes sense to put your money toward an investment.
It all feels so strange to me… all these big purchases and adult decisions. Wasn’t it just yesterday that I was 12 years old and going to a friend’s house for a slumber party to gossip about boys and play Truth or Dare all night?