Holding Pattern

I’ve been feeling a bit off lately. I’m not full fledged depressed or lonely, but I’m definitely not all smiles and optimism either.

I’m assuming this feeling is coming from work. We’re still in a “holding pattern” as my supervisor calls it.

I’m on the payroll which means I’ll be receiving my first ever grown-up job pay check on Friday, but I’m not really working yet. Our office is still in the growing stages. Our desks were ordered on Monday and should be delivered tomorrow or Thursday. We have a few computers, but no internet- the IT people are coming tomorrow. We have the suite leased, and a few office supplies on the few bookshelves lining the walls, but that’s about it.

So all of this means that I spend most of my time at home corresponding through e-mails and phone calls. I’ve been doing a lot of community outreach with my co-workers setting up meeting times with other agencies. Some days we are so bored we create our own “team building” events like going to see Whip It and having lunch at Panera, all on work time. It’s quite awesome actually. But after five consecutive days of sitting around watching Taylor Swift videos, working out and spending two hours at a time walking around Target, I want something more… rewarding.

That’s why I got a job in the first place. If I wanted to be a stay-at-home mom single person, I would have made that happen. My supervisor says our office should be up and running by the first week in November. Two and half more weeks. I may go crazy. Today I’m getting paid to meet my co-workers at Office Depot to make a list of other office furniture/supplies we need. I’m thinking a label maker, heavy duty hole punch, and dry erase markers are must-haves. Umm, how sad is that? My life has come to the pathetic point where the most exciting event of my day is buying office supplies.

I really hope these next few weeks start looking up.