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So, hello again

I’m the type of person who likes to be genuine and fully committed.  I  prefer to be honest and real in all that I do. So when I didn’t feel like blogging for almost two months, I didn’t force myself. I knew it would be pressed and come across as fake and I never want that to happen. I’m sorry for leaving you all so abruptly; it wasn’t planned, I promise. Maybe I just needed a break. I’m not sure what came over me. I thought about blogging almost daily. I opened my reader every few days and browsed through blogs, curious as to what was happening in all your lives. I smiled hugely when I saw new comments asking if I was ever coming back. I missed you all, but I still wasn’t ready to jump back in. Then tonight, unexpectedly, I was filled with motivation and the desire to write. So, hello again.

I really cannot believe how much time has passed. There is so much I want to share with you.

Did you know that I got back together with The Boy after my last post? Did you know that we dated for almost  a month, he was perfect, and then he broke up with me again? Did you also know that I’m not nearly as heartbroken as the first time (perhaps because I guarded my heart more securely this time around) and honestly, I’m not  entirely surprised at how things have turned out?

Did you know that I’ve been working crazy long days, but loving almost every minute of my job? Seriously, I have the best co-workers and I am so thankful to work for such an amazing company. I love that I get to impact the lives of children and adolescents on a daily basis and see their relationships with their families improving. Amazing.

Did you know that I’ve had a conversation or two with C over the past few weeks? It was the first time I was able to talk openly with him about The Boy and he was honest enough to give me his opinion and point of view about the situation. He explained how he felt that I “quickly become emotionally attached” in relationships which “can be a good thing, or a terrible thing in the wrong hands”… and that “because of [my] past, those feelings mean more to [me] than most people”. Umm… exactly. That guy knows me so well. Before we hung up I was sure to thank him profusely for a free therapy session.

Did you know that I’ve made some major progress on my 101 in 1001? Well I have and you should go check it out.

So let’s review, shall we? Since I last blogged, I got back together with the boy, had a few weeks of bliss, was broken up with again, began moving on, spent many long hours at work, and re-focused my attention on myself.  I’ve spent my days doing what I need to be happy. I’ve begun reading a new book, I’ve explored new music, I’ve talked to friends, I’ve drank wine, and I’ve run a few extra minutes past my goal on the treadmill. I’ve been trying to empower myself. Things are good. So… what’s new with you?

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2009 In Review

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Went to Vegas with some amazing girls, graduated with my Master’s degree, took a cruise with two of my best friends, moved back into my mother’s house, got a job, bought a car, and turned 25.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t make any resolutions last year, although I promised myself that I would get a job. And I accomplished that, so… yay! I’m no, I’m not making any specific resolutions this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My cousin had a beautiful little girl, Londyn.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank God, I had enough of that in 2008.

5. What countries did you visit?
Belize and Honduras

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
More money- to pay off loans and to travel.

7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
May 20th- I graduated, May 23rd- one year anniversary of my dad’s death, July 15th- I moved back to Texas, September 20th- my 25th birthday, September 28th- I was officially hired for my first real grown up job

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduating and getting a job

9. What was your biggest failure?
Hmm… I haven’t had too many failures this year I guess…. there are some things I probably shouldn’t have done, but I don’t consider them failures.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I woke up incredibly sick on New Year’s Day. That was not fun.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My car.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
All the new friends I’ve met since I moved back to Texas.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
The media and government.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Toward my student loans and rent.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Finishing grad school! Getting a job! Buying a car! Meeting a really nice/hot/funny/respectful boy!

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
“Don’t Step Believing”- the Glee version

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
b) thinner or fatter?
c) richer or poorer?
Definitely happier, probably thinner (or about the same), and a lot richer. I love paychecks.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Exercise. Talk to friends. Read.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying about finding a job.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
In Austin with my mom, sister, and grandfather. And the boy and I watched The Proposal together that night.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
No.

22. What was your favorite TV program?
Glee. And then Grey’s, Private Practice, How I Met Your Mother, The Office and Modern Family.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
No.

24. What was the best book you read?
Sadly, because I didn’t read much, Twilight.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
John Mayer. Although I liked him before, I’m sort of in love with his new album, Battle Studies.

26. What did you want and get?
A job.

27. What did you want and not get?
A better paying job.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
(500) Days of Summer.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I got a pedicure with a friend, had lunch with friends and my sister, saw a movie (maybe? I don’t remember…) and then had dinner at The Melting Pot with friends and my mom. I turned 25.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being able to talk to my dad.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
More professional, mixed with a feminine casual cuteness.

32. What kept you sane?
Coffee.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Robert Pattinson.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Gay marriage.

35. Who did you miss?
My dad. C. My roommate from NYC.

36. Who was the best new person you met?
The boy. Even though I technically knew him before, it doesn’t count.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
Everything will work out. Stop worrying. Everything happens for a reason. Seriously, stop worrying.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
“If fear hasn’t killed me yet then nothing will
All the suffering and all the pain
Never left a name
I’m in the war of my life, at the door of my life
Out of  time and there’s nowhere to run
I’m in the war of my life, at the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight til it’s done”
-War of My Life, by John Mayer

Thankfully

Today I am thankful for…

… iced coffee and travel mugs.

… co-workers who make me laugh and whom I absolutely adore.

… the opportunity to work for an organization I love and whose mission I completely support.

… a relaxing afternoon and the chance to take a cat nap on the pretty new couch in my office.

… my new client who is young, bold, engaging, and full of life, but also a child, scared, and yearning to grow.

… an evening with friends eating homemade pasta, salad, and chocolate bread pudding while watching The Office, Modern Family, and The Middle.

… Pinot Grigio.

… amazing blog friends like you and you and you and you.

Holding Pattern

I’ve been feeling a bit off lately. I’m not full fledged depressed or lonely, but I’m definitely not all smiles and optimism either.

I’m assuming this feeling is coming from work. We’re still in a “holding pattern” as my supervisor calls it.

I’m on the payroll which means I’ll be receiving my first ever grown-up job pay check on Friday, but I’m not really working yet. Our office is still in the growing stages. Our desks were ordered on Monday and should be delivered tomorrow or Thursday. We have a few computers, but no internet- the IT people are coming tomorrow. We have the suite leased, and a few office supplies on the few bookshelves lining the walls, but that’s about it.

So all of this means that I spend most of my time at home corresponding through e-mails and phone calls. I’ve been doing a lot of community outreach with my co-workers setting up meeting times with other agencies. Some days we are so bored we create our own “team building” events like going to see Whip It and having lunch at Panera, all on work time. It’s quite awesome actually. But after five consecutive days of sitting around watching Taylor Swift videos, working out and spending two hours at a time walking around Target, I want something more… rewarding.

That’s why I got a job in the first place. If I wanted to be a stay-at-home mom single person, I would have made that happen. My supervisor says our office should be up and running by the first week in November. Two and half more weeks. I may go crazy. Today I’m getting paid to meet my co-workers at Office Depot to make a list of other office furniture/supplies we need. I’m thinking a label maker, heavy duty hole punch, and dry erase markers are must-haves. Umm, how sad is that? My life has come to the pathetic point where the most exciting event of my day is buying office supplies.

I really hope these next few weeks start looking up.

Orientation

Last week I wrote that Monday was training for my new job. Today is Monday.

Today I will meet my co-workers for the first time. I’ve mentioned before that I have some anxiety when meeting new people, and today is no different. I’m hoping that I will easily be able to introduce myself, remain curious yet professional toward my co-workers, and (hopefully) make new friends. This is the part I’m most nervous about.

Today I will learn the details of my benefits and vacation time. I attempted to ask these questions when I was given the job offer, but the details were still a bit foggy. I was given only brief and summarized explanations. Since I’m being hired for a new office and new team, the final and thorough details will be discussed today. I’m sure this will be in addition to mounds of HR paperwork I will complete.

Today I will learn the “processes” for counseling at the agency. Obviously, each agency has its own set of rules and regulations they follow regarding the counseling process. I was told during the interview that this agency uses mostly Solution-focused and short-term counseling. Today I will be further introduced to their procedures and techniques.

Today I will take notes. Today I will ask questions. Today I will be filled with new information.

Today is the first day of my professional career!

New Routines

Hi. Remember me? I’ve been a bit MIA these past few days and I don’t like it one bit. My unplanned absence wasn’t exactly by choice though…

I’ve spent every day this week working as a substitute teacher. Monday was middle school math, Tuesday and Wednesday were elementary instructional assistants, and today was middle school ESL. Let me tell you, I. Am. Exhausted.

It’s frustrating being so tired all the time. I’m home by 4pm, but I’m too tired to function. So I nap. I snack. I read. I watch TV. And I go to bed. It’s been a monotonous and exhilarating routine yet I’m already bored of it. Obviously, the schedule I’ve kept this week is not working for me.

I guess that it’s a blessing that I’m starting the training for my new job on Monday. And after that I’ll delve into my new routine. I’ll learn the ins and outs of the job and there will be hours of trial and error. But eventually I’ll learn what works best for me.

I can already guarantee that my new schedule will include sleeping at least 8 hours a night (because God knows I neeeeed my sleep!), eating healthier (Smart Ones for lunch are okay, but a cup of coffee does not a healthy breakfast make), and writing regularly on my blog again (I’ve had a craving to write lately, but I couldn’t muster up the energy. My blog has suffered and this makes me sad).

So yes, a new routine is coming soon. I’m excited about the new schedule and the novelty of it all. I think it’s going to be a great step forward. (Except it always seems like I become much more stressed out during times of transition, so if you have any tips or advice about how to adjust gracefully I’d hugely appreciate it.) 🙂